Zanin (zing dar 5 a ni tawh) chu ka private blog hlui, journal anga ka hman thin ka haichhuak fuh a.
Journal thuziak tam vak lo mahse khatih hunlaia ka awmdan min hriatchhuah tir. Kum 11 lai a lo liam ve ta.
Kum 21 ka ni a, Georgia Perimeter College ah kalin Associate’s Degree ka ti mek a ni. Ka nu leh paten Aizawlah min hawsan tawh a, kan unauin US ah kan awm hrang theuh bawk a. Hetih lai hian ka zirlai bakah mahniin inluah (a changin midang inah) leh hnathawkin ka awm mek a ni.
Pian phungah tlangval chu ni ve tawh mah ila ka bo hle a ni. Mi zakzum leh inthlahrung tak ka ni thin a, tleirawl ‘awkward’ em em laiin sap ramah kan kal a. Insecurities, tlin tawh lohna hlirin ka khat. Ka nihnaah, kan dinhmunah, engkim maiah hian insit reng rengin ka seilian chho a.
Sum kan nei lova, chutianga chhia pawh ni hauh lo kan inluah te pawh ka zahpui thin a ni. Ei in man a hautak a, ka nu zara kan chhungkaw inchawm ve theihna chhete hna kan nei a. Chu chu min intihfai, house cleaning, a ni. Inrinnia school kan chawlhin ka u nen ka nu leh pate kan pui thin. He hna pawh hi ka zahpui hle a, ka hmelhriatten min hmu ang tih ka hlau thin.
High school ka zawh hnuin college application kan nghah chhungin semester khat ka awl a, Mizo refugees te hnenah sap tawng letin kan lawina sap kohhran in inhlawhna min siam a. An appointment te ka kalpui thin a, sap tawng mizo tawngin ka lehsak thin a. Gym ka kal tan a, ka inchei dan ka thlak tan bawk a. Tlem tlem chuan hma ka sawn.
College ka kal tan pawh chuan appointment kalpui chu ka chhunzawm zel a, sum tlem tlem a lo lut ve a. Ka nu leh pate an haw khan kan unau kan awm hrang a, kei Mizo chhungkaw in pakhatah ka awm ve ta a. An ina room pakhatah ka awm a, an in bul lawkah college a awm avangin thil chu a awlsam phian.
Ka hmalam hun hi ka han thlirin TUNAH ngat hi chuan beisei tur ka hrelo le.
Sikulah ka titha bawk si lo. Hnalam lah tam lo. Rethei. Speeding ticket man pe zo chiah. Ka chau reng nen. Taksa, khup na bawk si.
Kalna tur ka vai ruai e.
Kum 21 ka ni a, Georgia Perimeter College ah kalin Associate’s Degree ka ti mek a. College ka luh tirhin lehkazir ka ngai pawimawh hlawl lo. Gym, inkhelh leh hmeichhia. Ka tleirawl chhoh chhung zawngin hmeichhe lamah ka zei lova, an bula ka awm chuan ka tim vek zel. High school a ka thiante phei chuan i tuai em ni? tiin tum khat min zawt hial.
Hmeichhe lamah ka zei loh lutuk vang chuan tan lak angai a ni tiin ka inchhiar zau nasa. Gym ah leh mahni inenkawlna lamah ka hun tam zawk ka seng a. Lehkha zir lam ka ngaihtuah loh vang erawh chuan ka buai phah ta reng a. School fees pekna tur ka nei lo fo. Ka hnathawhnain mamawh tak tak bak min chawm zo si lo.
Ka pate haw hma khan, tum khat phei chu college ah ka grade/score a chhe lutuk a scholarship ka hmu zo lo. Scholarship hmu tur hian 3.0 GPA a ngai a, 2.96 tih vel ka hmu. Algebra class ah test kan neih tumin, class thulhin Ethiopian restaurant Champions League inkhel en turin ka kal. Test kha a lo pawimawh tih hriat nachang pawh ka hre lo. Fee pek a hun tawh si, zan tlaiah ka pain Mizo ho phone kualin fee pekna tur pawisa loan kan dil kual. A zahthlak duh khawp mai.
Ka fail chhan ka hre ve reng bawk si. Ka GPA in a tlin lo tih ka hre bawk a. Chhungten tun semester chu scholarship hmangin kan pe ve thei tawh ang tia an lo duan lawk kha a nia. Online a fee pekna kan han en chuan scholarship a lo awm awzawng lo. Kan hmelhriat pakhat college a thawk te an han call kual vel a. Khami tum kha chu ka tibuai khawp mai. Hemi hnu hian school pawh ngaihthah tawh lo turin ka intiam a.
Min hawsan hnu pawh chuan ka titha chho ve zel a, mahse class thenkhatah ka tichhe tan a. Ka rilru lah chu hmeichhe lamah hlir a ni bawk si. Tawng leta appointment kalpui hna chu kohhranin sum an nei tlem tawh a, ka insenso leh kan unau phone bill tih vel pek vek a ngai ve tho si a. House cleaning chu ka la chhunzawm zel a, tun tum chu ka in luah a an nu ber nen kan kal thin a. Intihfai tur/clients pawh an tam tawh lo. Mamawh bak min chawm zo lo. Chhungte tihbuaia pawisa dil hi ka tum tawh lo hrim hrim a.
Pawisa nei lo, college ah titha lo. Hmeichhe lamah chuan ka luck ve viau tawh mahse awmzia a awmin ka hre lo. Hmalam hun thlirin enge beisei tur awm chuang? Bei a dawng lek lek thin.
Nakinah ka blog hi ka chhiar let lehin, tun atanga Kum >1 years.
Pathianin ka tan hun ropui tak a ruahman.
Kum 11 hnuah ka han in reply ve leh ang e.
Engtin nge ka tih ang le…Tunah hian beidawng ta ila. Engtin nge ka hmalam hun a dang ang le. Beiseina sang tak nen ka bei zel ang.
Pathianin ka tan hun ropui tak a ruahman.
Lo beidawng ta la:
1. Nupui fanau I hmu lovang
I fanu duhawm tak mai chuan khawvel a hmu lo ang. A nu pum chhunga a nau la awm mek pawh hian.
2. Hmeichhe lamah I fing harh lovang
Nakinah I lo upa deuh ang a, hmeichhe lama I miss out anga I feel na atang hian I lo fing ve deuh tawh ang. Pathianin mipa leh hmeichhia, innei tura a lo ruat pawimawhna i hmu chho ang. Tuna I thil tih chak thenkhatte chu inchhirnaah an la chang zawk ang.
3. I nunah sum leh pai I hmu hman lovang
Pathian malsawmna zarah leh I nupui support na in sum leh pai malsawmna i dawng ang a, i chhungte leh midang tana malsawmna I lo ni ang. Amaherawhchu kum eng emaw zat chu I lo broke rih phawt dawn nia (Keipawh nakinah chuan tuna ka sum neih hi ka nei reng tawh bik kher lo thei ve tho).
College i kal laia an ina i awmna housecleaning pui thin tu che kha car accident a tawk a, a hriselna a tha lo. An chhungkua pawh an mumal theih loh phah lo a ni awm e. I zuk pui let thei zawk ang a, an pa in lawmthu tih tak zetin a la hrilh ang che.
4. Pathian i hre lovang
“Pathianin ka tan hun ropui tak a ruahman.” tiin ziak mah la i la ring tak tak chuang si lo. A khat tawkin Chawlhniah I inkhawm tawk. Tuna I chhiar thinte, an nun I awh thinte kha, nakinah chuan an upat tawh hnu feah an nunah Pathian tel lo chuan engmah awmzia a awm lo tih an hrechhuak.
Pathianin a siam danglam che a, thil ropui tak turin a duan che tih I hriat angai. Beidawn chang awm mahse, zan hi a ral anga naktukah ni eng a lo chhuak leh ang.
Beidawn kawng I thlang lova, thil tam tak tihsual nei mah ila vawiin thleng I thleng thei erawh chu ka chhuang hle mai che. Amaherawhchu harsatna hi kan pumpelh theih a ni lova, hmaichhana hmachhawn hi kan tum zawk tur a ni.